Oh man, that was better than Kraft!
Current mood: exanimate

This week started out stressful, when I got yet another doctor bill for a pretty big amount that I didn't have. I was already stressed out about money, and for some miraculous reason, my mom decided it was her duty to pay it since she was the one who told me I was allowed to go to the doctor. That weight was quickly lifted off me, but I still feel bad.

Went to SkateChurch with Erin and did some filming for WorldSeen. It was pretty cool. I don't know if we're going to get what we want from these kids though.

Jason is such a good friend to me. He just lets me vent when things suck and gives great advice. I know he cares about what I have to say, and about me and I love that. I really enjoy our relationship, even though the quantity needs to kick it up a notch

I got sick this week. It started with allergies and Matt being sick, and then on the 4th, my allergies got so bad that the symptons turned into a sickness. So all week its been ridiculously hot, AND I've been sick. Awesome.

Finally got a Slurpee. I want another one though. Felt good on the throat. Wednesday is free Slurpee day though.

Had some good talks about important things with Thom, and did part of my interview with him for WorldSeen. We need to work out a better plan though.

Had a terrible day at work on the 4th before I went out. Birds flew above my head inside the mall, I got blisters on my feet, and the customers were awful.

For the 4th, Jenny, Jerren and I met up with Sam, Chris, and Rhonda and went to Fort Vancouver to watch fireworks. They were fireworks, nothing special. However there was cheesy music to accompany. After that, we went to Shari's and had a lot of laughs. It was nice being with people I hadn't seen in so long. I had a great time in the company of some friends that are taken for granted some of the time.

Jeniffer and I spent a few hours at some various stores just taking our sweet time and enjoying the AC. It was fun. One of those things I like but don't think others are into. But it worked.

I spent a lot of time this week watching comfort shows online, like Roseanne, Clarissa Explains it All, and Boy Meets World. I also watched The Reaping, a really gnarly movie.

Started a new blog for more serious thought. http://ashleyfisk.wordpress.com if you're interested.

Got ditched a few times by the same person this week. Pretty lame, but I'm not too upset about it anymore, which seems like a cop out, but I wanted it this way. I hate being angry.

I got a Portland library card and I'm excited about it. I even placed my first book on hold.

Went to the Doug Fir to see some opening bands and The Album Leaf with Thom. We were directly below a cold air vent and it was freezing. The bands were good though. Alison and Josh were there too, so that was cool to see them, but also weird because we weren't in Spokane.

Got to spend some time with Desiree just talking in the apartment. It was nice, again, to spend some time with someone I haven't gotten to see in awhile and don't usually have in depth conversations with.

Slept better this week due to the curtains but worse due to not being tired, or temperature, or illness.

Church service was boring this week, but the social life was bumpin'. I met a new man named Joe, who is friends with Steve, and he also came to WellBeing. That went well too. It was fairly chill, but was nice to just hang out, especially after being exhausted and sick. Also, I got to have some good conversation with Sarah, which hasn't happened in awhile. Being able to let go has really been an asset to rebuilding a relationship.

I learned to sew! Just mending, but still cool. Its the only thing on my Summer To Do's that I have actually done. I'm kinda excited and pretty proud, even though its not that great of a feat.

Dan and Rick randomly came over and we hung out and talked for a bit. Also, in that same sling of time, my roommate's dad, a professor, came over. He's insanely funny and we had a good time laughing. I even sat around and talked with Adina for a bit and it was fun. All of this being at a time where I didn't feel particularly social. Hmm...

Currently watching : The Reaping

Just give me a bubble bath with candles and Damien Rice...
Current mood: calm

As a continuance in the trend, I haven't exactly been getting great sleep. However, Lisa from WellBeing found some material she had lying around that is not going to be used as a curtain and I am so thrilled to try it out tonight. I have got this inherent need to relax right now and its not working yet.

Jeniffer came to SkateChurch with Erin and I this week, following a meal we had together. It was a boring night though. There weren't many kids there, and none of the ones we hang out with.

I started getting into a new show, but didn't get to finish the season. Thom took his computer back and mine doesn't play videos. It was a huge bummer, but I can't be too sad because it was never mine to begin with. It was nice to have it for awhile though. I really appreciated it.

I spent this week being really worried about money. I had a lot I needed to spend at the end of this week and nowhere to get it from. It ended up working out. I paid everything I needed to. But now I'm broke again. Like I literally have $3 for two weeks. Yep.

Jason's phone stopped working, and being without a regular text friend has been driving me nuts. I feel totally out of the loop, and I miss him buttloads. And since I know you will read this, we really should hang out soon.

I wanted to be artsy, so I went through my art box. First, in an attempt to throw things away, but then I worked on a project for a friend's birthday that I am pretty excited about. I dont know if he'll like it or not though. But I'm not that worried. It was fun to create too.

Said goodbye to Amanda before her month-long trek to Thailand. I am really excited for her. I will miss her too. It will be a great trip though, for sure.

Got to have great conversation with my mom and sister this week. I miss them, and I'm really excited for them to come visit. Only a couple more weeks!

Toni and I hung out on Thursday. We talked, walked, WorldSeened, and Taco Belled. It was great to spend some spare time with a friend that I don't get to catch up with very often.

Went over to the Inklings house and watched The Office marathon with Lisa, Nathan, and Ashley. Also, good to be with Lisa, who I don't hang out with very often. I was thinking about it the other day, and I really don't know why we don't spend time together. Also, good to meet her brother, and see Amber there.

There are a lot of contingencies, but I basically decided that if I am going to live in the dorms next semester, I am going to live in a suite with Sally. We're both pretty excited, but its definitely not for sure yet.

Erin and I spent much of Friday together. We watched So You Think You Can Dance clips, went to the mall, got propositioned with $2000 cash for her car, and went to Ray's office and worked on WorldSeen stuff. It was fun, I really like her.

Matt called me Saturday morning and decided he wanted to drive down from Auburn to visit for the weekend. We got Muchas Gracias and Wing Stop, and we went to the Nickle Arcade. That was a blast! I had never been before. We also visited with Rick and Haley and watched Evan Almighty on the computer. We went to church. We also spent a lot of time just sitting, playing on our computers, taking pictures or whatever. He also looked at my computer for me. I thought it went really well. We had fun, and a day and a half is enough for us. At least consecutively.

Went to the WellBeing 4th barbecue and it was really fun. I enjoyed the atmosphere. I brought Cranium and they really liked that. We ate amazing food, lit fireworks, and just hung out with great conversation. There was a new friend I made named Steve, and I adore him. Tim ripped a huge hole in his pants, which provided amazing entertainment, but I felt bad for him.

Thom came over and we just chilled, and played a couple games. It was a nice time for us as well.

I have just spent the last day trying to relax, as I had said. Its not exactly working yet, but it will help having no plans until 6 tomorrow. I was supposed to work, but I switched shifts with someone. I get less hours, but only by fifteen minutes, so its no big deal. Anyway, I am exhausted and my body has hurt worse this week than it has in awhile. My back is killing me, my neck is in constant pain, and my ankle still hurts quite a bit. I can't sleep, I am always doing something, and I've just been tense. All I want to do is relax...massage or bathe or sleep...something along those lines. But I am pretty happy right now, and things are good.

PS This band is amazing. Even though, I am probably the only one I know that will think so...

PPS I just found out this week that mewithoutyou, Brand New, and Thrice are playing in Salem on Halloween. If Anyone wants to go, please let me know! I will pitch in for gas and piss my pants with glee. Or maybe just cry, a lot.

Currently listening : I am a Bird Now By Antony and the Johnsons Release date: 12:00 AM

Every Little Thing She Does Is Magic
Current mood: sore

This week only continued my new game fetish. Thom brought more for the apartment and I played some with people as I do. I also continued the movie fetish completely due to the fact that I found the free website. I also, on that site, watched all of the third season of Drawn Together.

Still have had someone over everyday. Its great, but it is wearing on me a little. Whenever people leave I completely retreat to my room and shut the door. I'm just exhausted, but that also could have alot to do with the ankle.

Speaking of ankle, on Tuesday, on my way to work, I was going down the steps of my apartment, missed the last step, and my ankle went inward and I landed on it with all of my weight. I used to be an athelete, and I've been to plenty of pop-punk shows, so I am familiar with sprained ankles, but this was different. I couldnt touch it on anything, let alone walk for two days. I was terrified and laid there on the ground and cried until I could hop up the stairs and crawl to my room and call my mom. I had to ask if it was okay that I go to the doctor because I dont have insurance, which was really the main reason I was in tears. I called Thom and he came and we went to Immediate Care. I sat in a wheelchair in the waiting room for awhile, got x-rayed, and was told there was no break. They wanted me to walk out, but I couldnt, so I got crutches. They gave me no advice, no medicine, no nothing. I dont think it was a simple sprain because the swelling hasnt gone down at all and I get sharp shooting cramps in it about 6 times a day, and heard a pop when I did it. I dont know though. Im just trying to take care of it so its not more of a problem later. Thanks to all of my friends who have been taking care of me, by the way.

Jeniffer came over during her shift at work and just hung out and we talked and then took naps. It was nice to just hang out.

Grubbs and I went to the store and got groceries and an ace wrap for my ankle, which I found out later, while making it feel better, was only making it worse.

I took quite a few naps this week and thats been nice. It always feels great to sleep during the day for some reason.

Continued my "Im working a lot this paycheck" stint. It was nice and I like Ashlee, so it worked out pretty well.

Thom and I had a great conversation after work on Friday. We talked about God, his worldview, and music.

Thom and I have been talking about living together next year. Its been on my mind a lot and its definitely something I have to think and pray through, but its definitely an option.

Jason picked me up from work on Saturday night and I got to meet his sister. Its always good to see him, ya know, since we talk all the freakin time.

Grubbs and I went to get happy hour wings at Applebees and bitch about work. It was fun. When we got back to the apartment, there were lots of people here. It was weird, mostly because it caught me off guard.

Church was good this week, but because of the ankle, I didnt make it to ministry.

Grubbs and Thom came over and we had root beer and pizza, played Taboo, and then went on Tabor for a clove. After that, we got Slurpees and just hung out here for a bit. It was fun.

It was a good week, the bum foot being the exception. It still hurts a bit, but I'm walking much better. I'm still super happy with life, and even more happy at the prospect of relaxing a bit this week. I only work three shifts and they're pretty small. And they're later in the week.

Also, Saturday night...say, 7? I want to have game night, so anyone who wants to come is welcome. And, my mom and little sister are coming to visit in a month and I want as many ideas of what to do with them as possible. They are here from a Tuesday to a Saturday, and they've never really visited Portland. So any ideas you have are greatly welcomed...

Currently listening : All That We Needed By Plain White T's Release date: By 25 January, 2005